Chasing Squirrels: Gratitude Day 2: Full Moons & Mushrooms. Also, Food & Feminism.

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You can safely assume that if I am posting on this blog, that I'm most likely in my Studio, drinking ☕, having enjoyed my morning medication and taken in something that uplifts, educates, and inspires me.
This morning ritual makes my entire day better.
And, in turn, entire existence.

This morning, I even ate within an hour of waking.

The Essential Baking Company Super Seeded, Gluten free bread, Kraft Extra Smooth, Sliced banana, and Ontario Strawberries.

This is a big deal for me and I'll come back to my relationship with food and trying to make better habits in a subsequent post.

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This morning I watched The rest of the documentary that I started last night Feminists: What Were They Thinking on Netflix. It was awesome.
I need to watch it a second time to take notes, frankly.
There was a lot of things touched on that I want to explore more fully.
It was powerful.
It brought me to tears a few times.
I've never felt more proud of being a woman than when i watched countless trailblazers of Amazon women taking on the world, demanding - fighting - for some of the things that we're a still fighting for, some things that these women, through hard work and relentless activism... radically living with purpose and intent... gah.
Overwhelmingly INCREDIBLE!!!
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Watch it.
You won't be sorry.

GRATITUDE!!!!👏
Day 2. 👏
YAASSSSS👏👏👏👏👏
Full👏 Moon👏 Magic👏!!!
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Last night, as mentioned in the previous post, was the full moon of Taurus.
I am a Taurus, so this is, essentially, my moon.
In an effort to add new habits and get on a serious path of consistent levelling up in life, I decided to really dive into my divine feminine - embrace my inner goddess.
One way that really resonates with me is moon rituals.
Now, I don't follow any books, literature, or instructions of any sort.
I do whatever I feel compelled to do.
In past months, I've been aware that the full moon and new moon are happening.
I sorta-kinda-not-really set some hypothetical intentions and vapidly 'let go' of what no longer serves me, without putting in any real effort whatsoever.
Guess what that results in?
Equally mediocre, half-hearted, non-committal-type responses from the universe.
Shocker, eh?😱😂

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In an effort to change, last night i made and ate a really good dinner,

German Cuisine: from the roots of my 1st Generation Canadian, Paternal Grandma.
Pork Schnitzel, Sweet & Sour Red Cabbage, Hot Potato Salad (links with photos below)

I ran the dishwasher, got everything settled, then ate not quite an eighth of mushrooms, (which is enough to get me where I want to go so far as ascension, but not lose my faculties or ability to function), ground up and mixed with a spoonful of PC Tzatziki.

Psilocybin Mushrooms

I went to my studio to kill some time while I waited.
This is when I started the aforementioned documentary.
I smoked a couple bowls and drank lots of water to counteract the nausea that always happens when I take mushrooms.
I've been doing mushrooms for about 16 years now. Not super regularly, but I really love them.
I did them when I was younger just to trip balls and escape for a few hours (ate a quarter oz to get to that level of 'reality').
Now I do them for the spiritual experience and the ability to use the medicine to help me ascend, bend my mind, and consider possibilities given to me directly from the Universe.
After about 20 minutes, I started to feel things blur around the edges and I got myself ready to go outside to bask in the light of the moon.
It was clear and crisp and bright.
Massive, so close and so far.
I wrapped myself up in 2 blankies, and moved my hammock so it was under the big walnut tree, with the moon shining through and got in.
I could feel the light on my face when I closed my eyes.

Full Moon through the Old Walnut Tree from my Samsung Galaxy S7, in my back yard in St Thomas, Ontario

I sat in the hammock so my feet were on the ground and I just swung.
For about an hour.
It was cold, but mostly I wasn't really aware of that.
Just in passing moments.
I just let myself bathe in the light. open to all the quiet, still power of the moons ability to amplify and transform the Universe's cosmic energy.
It was glorious.
Peaceful.
I was grateful - am grateful.
Eternally.
I swung.
I basked.
I gave thanks.

After about an hour, I came in the house, went to bed in the dark, and continued to let myself travel to parts unknown.
Partly meditative, partly lucid dreaming and still, every now and then, grounding myself back into this reality so that I could make mental notes about what I was experiencing.

I won't get into the 3 sort of major takeaway points I had too deeply, but one - the first one - that struck me so profoundly was that

I'm never sleeping. Just awake somewhere else.

The second was a vision of me slipping behind this heavy, blue, sort of velvety curtain and finding myself seemingly invisible - at least unnoticed - in a room full of men.
Mostly white, a few who weren't.
There was a distinct presence that I recognized as Russian, and - although I never fully saw faces as they weren't looking in my direction - they all seemed to be working on something that was serious and spoke to each other in hushed, grave tones.
I kept coming in and out of this space, wondering how long they were going to allow it to go on before someone acknowledged me (as I felt they KNEW I was there but were seemingly unconcerned) and wanted to know how I got there and why.
So I stopped going in, not wanting to press my luck.
I intend to explore this further after looking into it a bit.
Here's hoping that this post didn't put me on some lists. 😂😂😂
But really though.😧

The third thing I saw was something that I recognized as myself.
I was like a giant fiery phoenix.
Both feather and fabric.
Comprised of sheer and lace.
Flowing and glowing in light I appeared to emit, in an otherwise great and darkened hallway of myself.
Where my light shone, I could see that this space was also made of red, rich, flowing tapestries.
I was GLORIOUS.
I am glorious.
Powerful.
Divine.

I will most likely spend the rest of my day, going about my business, but all the while, meditating on these events and what they might be telling me. By all means, if you have any thoughts to share with regards to this, please do. All insights are of valued information.

The biggest take away from ALL OF THIS is that I have started to see myself as abundant.
Instead of scarce.

I have enough.

I am enough.

I can give of my abundance and share my wealth.
I can exchange energy as currency, not just money energy.
I have things of value to contribute.
I have divine purpose.

I'm excited about life.

I have no idea where it will take me but for the first time I'm really not scared or worried.
Just open.
Excited.
Invigourated.

GRATEFUL

Full moons.🌕
Full moon magic.♉🌕🌟
Magic mushrooms.🍄

YYYYAAAASSSSSSSS

Be blessed and be a blessing!

XO

K

Recipes From Last Night's Dinner!

All were converted to Gluten Free by substituting with Gluten Free flour, bread crumbs, and thickener. All vinegar used was Apple Cider Vinegar